Friday, February 28, 2014

Mexico is NOT going to change for me


Mexico is NOT going to change for me
February 28, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman


It is the killer sun that ruined my face and gave me these horrible spots right on both cheeks!
It is that ill-fated day when I happened to be driving on one of the most highways here and this irresponsible man decides to cross the road on REVERSE without thinking that NOT only his life was at stake but my own and that of others!
It is the tardiness, unconsciousness and carelessness and informality of everyone here!
It is the government always deceiving its citizens, promising a common profit and well being!
It is my inconsiderate neighbors always partying out and blasting the music till the crack of dawn right when I have to get up!
It is the lack of sympathy towards one another!
It is my inconsistent work schedule that doesn’t leave room for me to work out consistently!
It is the deal with everyone masquerading themselves behind “THE” high class so the world can see that they belong there!
It is my pervert and morbid neighbor who stalked me for a while until I had to literally become a monster and put him in his place. 
It is the nonchalant people who tell me, “no hay prisa,, pero si me urge!” When it comes to doing business!
It is my inability to help others lose weight when I can’t even help myself!
It is this NEVER ending hiatus that drives me insane because I can’t workout like I did before!
It is the rainy season that makes almost the entire city flood during the rainy season!
It is the emptiness I feel when I witness people leaving our morals, values, ethics, respect and principles fall through the cracks!
It is the giant leaps our society has taken to follow all the bad habits of other countries!
It is the overly aggressive people behind the wheel who hunk the horn at me without even giving each other a chance to breathe. 
It´s the lying married jerk who I just met and who claimed to be single and compromise free!

It is true that all the aforementioned factors make me lose my cool when I am feeling too sensitive or non tolerant- when that happens, I make my best attempt to remain imperturbable but there are times when I am struck by several scenarios at once. Right when I’ve had it, I feel like complaining about absolutely everything, or simply look for excuses to whine!

That moment happened the other day while discussing my frustration with a friend of mine. He told me, “Gina, I have learned that Mexico is Not going to change for me, I used to waste time and energy unnecessarily trying to change everything and everyone, unlike now.” His comment felt like I had just been dumped an ice cold water bucket that made me   me revisit the whole picture.

On account of that, I concluded that sadly but true, the world is NOT going to stop to soothe my grief. I mean, at this point in life, I MUST be well aware that a life sans problems is NOT going to happen, not ever, not for anyone, not anywhere. Problems are part of life, therefore I have to embrace them and learn to take the good from even those down times. After all, God will never give us more than what we can handle, nor does he punish us. Human self-centeredness is the creator of our own failures. 

And I have to remind myself every day that even when the circumstances in my life become overwhelming and unbearable, when my narrow little world is falling apart and nothing seems to be escalating towards spiritual, physical, financial and emotional prosperity, there´s no turning back. La vencedora de mil batallas within, will push me to get up to go to work, work out, write, read, do volunteer work and attend mass only out of impulse. 

But overall, it is NOT the lying jerk, the irresponsible driver, the impatient people, the weather, my neighbors, others´responsibility, the different mentality, or all other impending obstacles, it is my attitude and what approach I take towards each stumbling block. 

I wish I changed my country, my community, my surroundings, but in reality, change starts within like Gandhi stated...




Wealth Without Work
Pleasure Without Conscience
Knowledge Without Character
Commerce (Business) Without Morality (Ethics)
Science Without Humanity
Religion Without Sacrifice
Politics Without Principle




Le preguntaron a Mahatma Gandhi cuáles son los factores que destruyen al ser humano. Él respondió así:
La Política sin principios, el Placer sin compromiso, la Riqueza sin trabajo, la Sabiduría sin carácter, los Negocios sin moral, la Ciencia sin humanidad y la Oración sin caridad.
La vida me ha enseñado que la gente es amable, si yo soy amable; que las personas están tristes, si estoy triste; que todos me quieren, si yo los quiero; que todos son malos, si yo los odio; que hay caras sonrientes, si les sonrío; que hay caras amargas, si estoy amargado; que el mundo está feliz, si yo soy feliz; que la gente se enoja, si yo estoy enojado; que las personas son agradecidas, si yo soy agradecido.
La vida es como un espejo: Si sonrío, el espejo me devuelve la sonrisa. 
La actitud que tome frente a la vida, es la misma que la vida tomará ante mí.
"El que quiera ser amado, que ame".  
No compliques las cosas, es así de simple: ¿Extrañas?. ¡¡¡LLAMA!!!  ¿Quieres ver a alguien?. ¡¡¡INVITA!!!   ¿Quieres que te comprendan?  ¡¡¡EXPLICA DE NUEVO!!!   ¿Tienes duda?  ¡¡¡PREGUNTA!!  ¿No te gusta algo?  ¡¡¡DESÉCHALO!!! ¿Te gusta algo?. ¡¡¡CUÍDALO!!!  ¿Tienes metas?, ¡¡¡Cúmplelas!!!   
¡Estar VIVO no es lo mismo que vivir!.  La vida no son años, la vida es consciencia y tu eres el lugar que Dios ha elegido para vivir.  Eres su lugar preferido.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Just when I am running out


Just when I am running out
February 26, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman


N. S. T., my most dedicated High School student told me last week, “Gina, don’t stop writing either,” after I encouraged him to keep up the good work with his own writing. I recall the first few essays he wrote, he hadn’t detached from his first language, unlike the last two essays that I’ve commented on in which I've seen a great improvement! When I am able to see my students progress little by little, it makes me feel satisfied because it is the result of my work, one of my passions. That satisfaction has to be gratified constantly, especially when I am feeling insecure. 

Just last week through a doubtful and dismaying moment, I started praying and amidst that 
grito desesperado,  desperate cry, as I like to call it, I begged God to help me find a meaning through my daily actions, through my job and all the tasks that I do. I have always questioned the why to everything I’ve done in life and I plead to be guided to know how to  share and transfer my knowledge to others since sharing is one of my many drives. 

For instance, when I constantly train at the gym to get in good shape, and others approach and inquire for expert advice. 
When I am called by the friend of a friend asking me for an advanced composition class because they want to improve their writing skills and because they were told I am the expert who will help them achieve their goal. 
Or when I am asked for spiritual advice as a result of me being very devoted just because I attend the old traditional rite in Latin.
As well as when I am asked for professional advice of how to go about a particular situation, for example, a job interview, how to behave, what to expect, or how I find clients, etc.

When people ask me about these issues, it has to be that either I am old and wise, or because they really trust my knowledge. Whatever the reason may be, they are a shot in the arm to keep me going when it feels as if I were running out of ideas to write or when I am lacking motivation or self-confidence. 

That shot in the arm was projected through these great comments that revived and refreshed my mind and got me going when I thought my mind was running low. 

These comments were written by one of my students who moved to Monterrey last November.” I was soooo happy to read her comments!

I am glad you are back in the exercise thing, me too, I have been doing insanity, but like you said It feels so good!!
Alina

xoxo
February 25, 2014 at 5:57 PM

February 26, 2014
Alina
I have been reading your blog, I like it very much!
This comment was written by one of my students who moved to Monterrey last November.”

These comment were made by some of my sisters friends. 

 Sunday February 23,2014
Gustavo
“Oh yeah, on my way to work I was reading your sister's comments/thoughts about life in -that side-; so far I am impressed, very impressed! Haven't read something so articulated and realistic lately, so hats of to your sister.”

Hi Gina Yoryet, I don't have the honor of meeting you yet. I have met your Sisters Liliana, Madahid, and Azucena, and I see Liliana running with you. Just wanted to stop by your blog and say hello. I love your page you are a very motivational and inspiring writer. Keep up the great work God Bless. on My partner in crime...Another immortal

I got these motivating commentaries right on time because since I’ve been on this never ending health impending hiatus, I was seriously considering about giving up writing but then I thought, I wouldn’t be true to myself and I would be giving up part of who I am, what keeps me alive...

Therefore, I will NEVER run out of ideas.
  

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Sometimes our fears are manifested in our dreams


Sometimes our fears are manifested 
through our dreams
February 16, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman



Just a couple of nights ago, I had a very weird and scary dream that forced me to wake up in the middle of the night. I have never been superstitious and I never give importance to dreams because according to what I’ve read, dreams are caused by our unconscious mind when we aren’t getting enough rest or when we are undergoing a lot of stress. 

For this reason I ignore insignificant things like that pointless dream but his particular delusion disturbed me because it is not the first time it happens during my sleep. Throughout my life all those vivid images experienced abstractedly happen time after time and I am left reflecting very profoundly trying to find the why it keeps haunting me down.  A few days later when I’ve regained my peaceful posture again, I momentarily forget about it until the next time.

I try not to be fearful about certain things I go through but when my mother shares her bad dreams, my own doubts are answered and I reiterate this to her, “don’t worry mother, sometimes our fears are manifested in our dreams, try not to think about it.” She is an overly sensitive and sometimes superstitious woman like many Mexican women her age. When I try to soothe her agitated mind, she calms down temporarily but the next day her fears are manifested once again.

When we dream is as if we were living another life but when we come back to reality all of that is very unreal and it doesn’t make sense why we hallucinate about bad things. I’ve read books that interpret dreams and some can be considered a bad omen, others a good omen but nobody really knows the real reason for them. As far as mine, they are nothing but fears and the bleakness that we are faced with occasionally. All of that is assuaged through faith and prayers which are my only emotional sustenance...

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

It feels sooo good!


It feels so good!
February 11, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman


I just got through with my second pilates session and my entire body is a bit shaky from all the  effort it takes to have discovered new muscles and  amplifying them in new ways that I’d never imagined before. According to my instructor, it was very easy for me to follow, as a prior athlete I already have a sense of what is going on BUT! my main obstacle was to get my stiff rock trunk to barely manage to stretch it to its max. I feel like a child who has just made a highly valued discovery which will be MY new game of getting to know my body and maximizing it without hurting it further. This took me back to college during my early twenties when I was a young, competitive and high-rendering athlete, I remember one day right before a state meet coach Marisa approached me and implied how brittle my body was for a runner. Yeah, for a runner! I had known that all along so it didn’t bother me. 

Inelasticity has always been a problem because it has limited me from performing better athletically, and maybe it has even turned out counter productive as it has NOT prevented me from injuries? Now that I am retraining my body, I will use it to my advantage, never mind all that pounding and high impacting exercises that will further aggravate my health.

I can’t wait to see the results with this new journey that feels sooooo good!

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Being true to myself


Being true to myself
February 9, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman




Early last year I met a young man ten years my junior whom I really liked as a friend and whom I coincided at the gym with a few times. That friendship didn’t last long because I was forced to cut all ties with him due to the fact that he was interested in something else, not a steady relationship, he only wanted to have casual and random physical encounters. At the beginning I couldn’t find a way to tell him that I wasn’t interested in anything other than friendship but once he started getting pushy, I was very uncomfortable and had to be up front about telling him that I wasn’t interested even in his friendship. That was the end of it.

Later in 2013 I met another very decent man whom I didn’t have any interest other than interviewing him to post an article about him and the turn out was the same. I kept wondering for a while why he had come on to me like that. He made it clear that he was physically attracted to me BUT he could not and did not want to be in any type of commitment, he only wanted to have intransigent encounters. After a few text messages I received from him asking me if he could come over, I felt pressured and thought, “How insulting! At this point in life I cannot let anybody pressure or force me into doing something I don’t want! How insolent have a lot of men become because sadly many women welcome it and permit it!”

This past Monday I went to lunch with someone I met in March of last year whom I totally clicked with and who I was inseparable with for a couple of days. He claimed that he wanted to be in a serious relationship. He was everything every woman could’ve asked for. Sweet, polite, charming, generous, good looking, athletic body, never been married before, no baggage, CEO of his own company at thirty six. A few times I believed that perhaps such well accomplished man and I could get to know each other but in reality he was only visiting. Prior to Monday when I had lunch with him, when I learned about him visiting once again, I was caught off guard for a number of reasons. Once we saw each other, neither one of us showed as much interest as the year before. Not specially after I was told that he was only interested in “dating” different people because he gets “easily” bored.

The word D-A-T-I-N-G makes me cringe when it crosses my mind because I have never been able to decipher the real meaning behind it. Does it entail to only go out for a drink with different people different days of the week, does it entail kissing and making out with James on Friday night, with  Erick on Saturday evening and back up my weekend outings with a make out session with Oscar? Does it involve having a romp in the sack (like they vulgarly say?) with Christian, or how about a wild session with Alexandro in between the sheets? Maybe submissively and willingly sharing my body with Anthony without expecting absolutely anything in return and wait till the next time any one of them has the urge once again?

That would NOT be me! 
Sometimes human behavior makes me doubt whether I am going against the current at all odds or maybe I am the odd one? Maybe I am too old fashioned? At the same time I think how insolent some men are to open such big mouths to ask women for something very private and unique without any commitment. Perhaps I could have been stupid or easy to manage when I was younger but at this point in life N-O-H!

Throughout time I have learned to be true to myself even when the majority of humans have let values fall through the cracks. Why should I be daunted to tell the truth? Why should I scoop to that level and give my body like a worthless piece of meat? The man of my dreams is lying ahead somewhere along the line but in the mean time, I won’t recur to momentary pleasure because at the end of the day when I have a face-off with myself in the mirror, I will feel more empty, alone, lonely, forgotten, used and abandoned. Therefore, Jason, Mario, Thomas, Jack, Scott can keep looking for other women who would be more than glad to disrespect their bodies at their will...


Corinthians 6:19-20
Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.

I don’t want to be like the article I just read last night:

For all you beautiful women out there feeling somewhat "invisible" and perhaps can relate to one or more of the emotions I've been going through, remember that it's not you. I know I'm completely "normal" in every aspect (even though I can be "Abby-normal" on many occasions) and yet I often feel invisible. It just reminds you that the one worth waiting for will not overlook you but jump at the opportunity to be with you. You won't be his "option" but his diamond in the rough, finally washed up on his shore.