Transparency in its purest form

Transparency in its purest forms
December 6, 2014
By: Gina Yoryet Roman

I am on a countdown, just 20 days away from one of the most important days of my life. Little did I know that mother fortuna had all the stars aligned at the right time and place, for me to be with the right someone, THE one! There’s a blend of joy, pride, hope, and victory stirring within. Finally, and for once, I’ve come acquainted with tranquility. Being disturbance free didn’t happen at the blink of an eye, I’ve worked cumbersomely for my soul to attain transparency day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year. In result, that strenuous endeavor has been my first and foremost reason to cut all  ties with all past inner turmoil. That long-sought serenity achieved after becoming disciplined and persistent, has finally mirrored within and out...

All it took was self-acceptance, confidence and love, but more importantly, ‘BELIEVE,’ that when you ask for something and have faith, it shall be given to you at God’s time, NOT at your time.

Since we’ve been together, everything has flowed just right, the way it should when two lonely and hungry souls meet love in its purest forms. When we met, we were both very happy and fulfilled people, but since our paths crossed, we complemented each other and filled that ‘something’ missing. Our joint force has led us to get familiarized with plenitude. Even though I feel like a stranger in my own body and physical wholeness seems more like a distant memory, (at this time, my prerogative is to be injury free) I affronted the face of spiritual, personal, emotional, mental, financial and professional entirety.

Unlike ten, fifteen years ago when I prioritized my outer shell’s wholeness and overlooked all other types of absoluteness. The more competitive I was, the bigger my ego enlarged, and the ‘better’ I looked. Ironically, deep down I knew that the more I fed my vanity, the more insecure I became, the more the inner me outcried to find true, spontaneous and everlasting love. My outer self was the perfect facade to conceal the real me and the less attuned I felt with ‘my reality.’ The more imperfect perfectionist I became, the more I welcomed everything and everyone I NEVER wanted because I didn’t regard myself as ‘worthy’ of something better fitting according to my standards. 

Fast forward to today, I unconsciously, but very willingly and joyfully, fell for J.V. A. for many common reasons. He is everything I always wanted. He is catholic (I ALWAYS wanted that in a partner in order to have a solid relationship), we are VERY close in age, he doesn’t have any children from prior relationships, (I have always wanted my own family), he is very smart, loving, giving, caring, understanding, and forgiving. At such young age, he is a high achiever, a go getter as well as professionally ambitious. He is very open to learning my language and culture. The best of all is that we are on the same page, we are aligned in so many other ways, we want the same things in life at the right time and place...

That time and place is right now and through our shared acumen of transparency, we will be lifetime partners...